My love for you is still there but to be honest It slowly seems as if it dissapearing.
I don’t like it! Why could it be? For the past 5-6 years you have been in my life and the most important person.
It couldn’t be the fact that I have a new and big change coming up in my life and my emotions are leaving you behind!?!
I never see or hear from you as much and that has caused my heart a lot of ache and pain. I missed you every day, every minute, every second.
Before I used to see you every day or my life. I would wake up and you were there. I would go to bed and I know you were still there.
Now I wake up and go to bed every morning wondering where you are, what you are doing, are you thinking of me?
I think i’m getting tired.
Tired of all the waiting, wondering, hoping, praying, wishing.
I’m tired of not being around you. I need and still need you so much.
You give me the strength to make it through my days.
You are the reason I push myself further.
You are more to me than anybody has ever meant.
You have giving me everthing I have possibly wanted or needed.
But I think my emotions are wearing down and I don’t know what to do.
I don’t ever want to loose you but I don’t know how to take these feelings.
Could it be that I just feel like this today or will this continue on!?
Is this a part of gods plan?
It also seems that I don’t ever have much to say to you as I did before.
Could it be that now I feel like we are just going back to friends?
Or could this all just be in my head?
I am not sure; but something does not feel right with my love for you.
Please just hope that this is all not true though.
Even though I say I am tired of all the waiting, wishing, hoping and praying; It has all been worth it!
And at times like these where I feel like I am losing you or my love could possibly disappear; I know its not true!
I love you. Always will and always have. No matter where I go or what I do, you will always be with me.