Thoughts of the day:
Sometimes I wish I could wear my heart on my sleeve. Maybe sometimes it would be easier if others could see it, could understand what makes it beat and what makes it doesn’t. Maybe they could understand how i feel. Instead of me always having to make an effort to tell someone when clearly we all know how i’m really feeling. Wouldn’t it be great if we never had to worry about trying to figure out how others feel about us. Maybe it would be bad if we all knew how we felt all the time but maybe it would be good.
Some of us struggle with communicating with others in general so why would they want to express how they feel. Why would they want to put themselves out there only to find out how vulnerable they are. Why do we even have feelings at all? I feel, see even the word feel just sounds weird, I feel as if we don’t need emotions or feelings. Sometimes all it does is cause trouble. People don’t know how to handle themselves or how to use them wisely and everyone just ends up getting butt hurt.
I know we all have our own opinions and we were made to have emotions because without them we just wouldn’t be human! But don’t you think that this world we live in now a days people already act like robots and just use emotions/feelings for negativity. So whats the point? Can’t we just get rid of them. Most people do better where they can just sit around a exists. Its pathetic but it makes life so much easier.
Left and right people are getting offended by this and offended by that. They feel it upsets these people and upsets them. Nobody knows what emotions are anymore. Nobody knows how to use them positively. What is going on?
SO wouldn’t it just be easier if we were to have emotions or feelings that we literally just wore them on our sleeves. People could walk by and see that this person is feeling this way and they could choose whether or not they want to interact with them. Maybe it would save marriages and relationships because we would constantly know how we are feeling. No arguing, nobody gets upset. If someone where to choose to interact with someone when they were in a crappy mood they would know what they are getting themselves into. They are choosing their own battles.
At this point in our world we are run by our emotions and our feelings so why not just make them obvious to everyone! Why not?
I love some of the daily inspirations I come by and this is one of them…
When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you’re trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest if you must, but don’t you quit.
Life is queer with its twist and its turns,
As everyone of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about
When they might have won, had stuck it out.
Don’t give up though the pace seems slow,
You may succeed with another blow.
Often the goal is nearer than,
It seems to a fain and faltering man,
Often the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victor’s cup
And he learned too late when the night came down,
How close he was to the golden crown.
Success is failure turned inside out
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit,
It’s when things seem worse that you must not quit!
Written by Anonymous
This will be the first and maybe the last time I post about pregnancy. Not because I don’t enjoy talking about the topic but i just believe that some things shouldn’t be written here sometimes.
These last few months have been very hard for me. I have been through a lot that I know most people couldn’t handle. It has definitely caused me unheard of amounts of stress. Looking back a few years ago from where i am now I never thought I would be here.
I joined the militaru in 2012. That same year I meet and married the most kind, good-hearted, funny, loving man I now call my husband and soon to be daddy.
My life i always thought of it as a serious of crazy events, which don’t get my wrong, have helped me to become the women I am now but sometimes life really gets the best of you.
A few months ago my husband and I found out that we were gonna have a little one of our own. A gift only I know could come from God…Well my husband did too 😛
The day I first saw our little one up there on the screen as that scanned my stomach for that site of him or her; I know that whatever has happened before than or will happen, could never get rid of this joy that I know carry in me. Everything that get ever get me down has become such a blur.
Day to day I remember that I am not always alone. No matter where I go or what I do I will always have someone tagging along with me and this someone is more important to me than I could ever imagine.
We all know the typical mom-to-be worries. Can i eat this? Can I do that? Is it safe to sit or lay like this? All the things we used to do in our daily lives we know have to think about twice before doing.
As i Sit here now writing this I think about how lucky I have been. To have my husband who will do anything and everything for us and who loves me no matter what, I have a job, have a roof over my head and food on my table and now I have been blessed with our little peanut! 🙂 I know raising this little one will not be easy and it will be tough some days but just like everything else, It will be worth it all in the end.
My life has definitely turned out completely different than what I thought It would but now I wouldn’t want it to be any other way.
Everyday I think about all the things i am excited to do when we finally get to meet our little one. All the things we want to teach him/her. All the places we want to go. I know that maybe we won’t get to do all these things but just being able to raise a child of our own in itself will be such a miracle and a joy.
I know some of you might be reading this and laughing thinking, “Lets just wait to see how she thinks when that baby i actually born!” Granted it isn’t gonna be sunshine and glitter, but I look back on how my parents raised me and how much of a brat I acted but in the end seeing your children become the people they were created to be, I can only imagine is the best feeling.
Anyways..I know that me now having this responsibility of being a mother and my husband now a father, that I will undoubtedly mess up and get mad or angry but I know that couldn’t wouldn’t have blessed us with him/her if he knew we couldn’t do it.
I am so happy that we have been chosento be parents, and every day and night I will thank god for all that he has given me!
On that note I must say Goodbye.
Gotta say Goodnight to my husband and to our little one I carry with me!
As we are growing up we are told the world is how it is. That we can’t really change what happens in life sometimes. World has it ways of working that we just don’t understand. Why do we fail?? Why are some more successful than others??
Growing up we get these things in our mind of how we are supposed to be. Most people these days don’t have the motivation or the want to find the person they are to become or what the world has to offer. Instead we sit back and let life just take its toll. We let this idea that the world tells us how we are supposed to be take over our minds.
Everyone wants to be like someone else. Why?? Because its easy to be like everyone else, to just follow and not lead. Its hard and it takes courage, spirit, motivation and work to become the person you should be. To be someone different, to be a leader.
Growing up in the world we live in now, I feel as if people don’t have the chance to find the person they are supposed to be. Technology and all these new life things are constantly forcing these ideas and life styles down peoples throats.
We never dare to challenge ourselves anymore. We reserve to being just normal and just being that typical human being.
Everything around us is made up of people around us that we call life. But is it really life?? Are we really living out what we are offered. There are no guarantees in life. But I can guarantee you that without if you don’t strive to become someone you want, you will become someone you never want to be.
What is your dream?? Your goal?? Find the reasons you do what you do, that make you strong. To make you walk by faith and not sight!
We all have these abilities and skills in us that we don’t know about. Are we gonna choose to find these abilities or are we just gonna sit back and watch life pass by us??
I sit here and type these words but I know in the back of my head that all these things that life has to offer and all these abilities, I have not taken advantage of. I sit back some days and just let life pass me by. I also to let this world get to my head. I struggle to find the person I want to be, I struggle with no being a follower and working on being a leader.
I struggle with the courage, the spirit, the strength and the motivation. Why?? Because nobody n this world anymore had those things. So being constantly surrounded by people that just want to follow and not lead; its makes things harder to be that person you want to be, to be a leader. Not having anyone to look up too.
Growing up we all need to learn that we can be the person we want to be. That we ned to take these extra steps to not a follower. This world needs a change. The people need a change.
I don’t want my life to be easy. I want to live in a world where people are happy with who they are. They enjoy their lives. I want to be the person to help others. I DONT want to be the person who just sits back and watch their life flash before their eyes.
My biggest question is, What can we do for ourselves to guarantee that we will never be that person?? To guarantee that we will have a purpose and a drive???
We need to challenge ourselves. I need to challenge myself!!! Don’t let the world or people in this world tell you it is how it is.
Well my goodness…..It has been a long time since I have been on here.
Life has taken me through crazy twist and turns lately and it seems as if time doesn’t even exsist.
I currently sit here in San Antonio Texas in a local Starbucks, thousands of miles away from home and my husband; In a place that still feels very strange and unwelcoming to me.
On a daily basis I constantly question what I still want from life. I struggle with finding the person that I want to be. I thought at one point in my life It was all clear for me….but over the past few weeks I feel all of that has just floated away and never to come back. Not sure If it is happening for a reason or If I brought it on myself.
Sometimes I truly do believe things happen for a reason but give me to long to think about things and I start to question all the possibilities…IS this really happening for reason?? Was i just giving up and not even realizing it?? Was i not trying hard enough?? Was i not fighting?? It goes on and on.
So I sit here wondering my next step in life. What is gonna happen?? Where am I gonna go??? I feel as if I am falling into the deep dark unknown right now and its scary.
However said life was gonna be easy or always glitter and rainbow!?! Nobody unfortunately:/ So than there is the big girl in me who says, stand up…pull up those big girl panties even higher…and go conquer the world. THAN…there is the side of me that just wants to curl up in a ball in a deep dark corner and cry and just be away from the world. Asking myself. Does it just happen to me?? Or does it happen to everyone?? Does everyone struggle this much?? Does life seem this shitty to everyone sometimes too?? or am I making life for myself even harder and not even knowing it.
I have battled with myself for years. I’ve struggled in places that a lot of people don’t know about and I feel sometimes my past trying to sneak up on me and nip me on the butt. Fearing what it would obviously bring I push it back away. There are times though when I know I am inviting it back because I do and I know those things never help me.
I am struggling emotionally, physically and mentally right now to figure out how this happened but I know I need to let it all go and move on. I know I don’t fit in here which just tells me its time for something better. Its just the better i worry about. I fear the better could possibly be a worse. And this Is when my over thinking comes in place again. I start creating scenarios in my head, the possibilities, the challenges and I know I need to stop. Just feeding my thoughts with more negativity.
As I Sit in this chair; I know I need to breath, throw my hands up, and just let this roller coaster take itself on another ride. After all, I don’t even know where I am going with this one, Why not just enjoy the mystery and take what I can get. I might be the best ride I will ever take in life!!! Continue reading